Far From Heaven

Journey to the City of Endless Night: The Monthly Edition. Chapter Eighty Four: Miroku


Another month has gone by, and another chapter of Journey is going live. We're really on target for this year's monthly updating. I only have one more chapter to draft from scratch in the posting schedule, and it isn't slated until August/September, so we have time. I'm super pleased by this. It means that you'll get more of the story without it going dormant again for a long period. And really, isn't that what we all want?? I rather look forward to posting once a month, too. It's just something sweet to look forward to.

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Furious Sess

Another Month, Another Chapter.


Eleven years ago today, I started a little fanfic that was solely for my amusement and curiosity. I had read the Belgariad/Malloreon countless times, but when I discovered Inuyasha, I had a crazy idea of meshing the two together. It'd be fun to see the character sets clash, help keep some old friends around well beyond their canon pages, and allow me to practice prose writing and exploring craft while working on other things.

I drifted away for a few years, I'll admit, but now that I'm back writing on this story it's been just as fun as I remember it being when it started. I know. It's really long. We're at Chapter Eighty Three with this installment. That's a lot of fanfic to read for anyone. I'm hopeful, however, that the story still holds some magic and will continue to draw readers old and new alike as we continue posting a monthly installment for at least the remainder of 2016.

Since this chapter is an anniversary special, I debated about which one to choose next. There's an order that must be followed chronologically, of course, but I had a little leeway on which one to pick next. I chose Sesshomaru because this chapter captures a lot of the crossover elements, the emotional turmoil our Demon Lord is about to truly endure, and has quite the cliff hanger. It just seemed like the right choice to post this one next. I hope that you'll enjoy reading it as much as I have writing it. After all, we have left Sesshomaru and Rin in quite the pickle and we need to help get them out of it.

You can find Chapter Eighty Three at MM.org and AFF. I am also still updating on AO3 daily until I run out of chapters to post and they're caught up with both MM.org and AFF.

After the last installment, I did receive a review, so here's that response:

firebird: Thanks for reading this long epic mess. I'm glad you enjoyed it so much and hope you'll like what follows as much. I'm also glad I could introduce you to Eddings and the wonderful world he created in the Belgaraid/Malloreon. I've known Garion an awfully long time, so whenever I renew that relationship it's always nice to hear that others have discovered him, too. I hope to hear from you again! Thanks for reading so much.

And with that, we'll have to wait a whole nother month to see what happenes next.

Happy reading!

Far Away Eyes

Deadly Duo

The Journey to the City of Endless Night Has a NEW Chapter


It's been almost one month since posting the last chapter live. So far, I'm on track to have my 12 chapters for a solid year of posting once a month, so that's great.

This month, I'm posting a Sango-centric chapter. She's such a complex and intruging character to explore, and consdiering where I left off with our poor monk, our demon slayer's surely to be upset and full of fire. I'm also rather proud of the crossover elements in this chapter. From the Eddings universe, Beldin has always been one of my favorites. He's an ugly little dwarf with a heart of gold and it was fun playing with his character in this now that he's been exposed and can't hide behind Feldegast anymore.

Anyways, head over to MM.org or AFF for the latest chapter.

I'm still in the process of moving the rest of Journey to AO3. If you haven't checked it out there, feel free to do so.

Until next month (when, gasp, Journey turns 11! Can you believe it?)

Far Away Eyes 

My 2015 Reading List

Books I Read In 2015

  1. No Man's Land by Pete Ayrton (Editor) (504 pages)

  2. Fangasm: Supernatural Fangirls by Katherine Larsen and Lynn S. Zubernis (239 pages) reread

  3. Fanphenomena: Supernatural by Lynn S. Zubernis and Katherine Larsen (Editor) (142 pages)

  4. The Canterbury Tales by Geoffrey Chaucer (528 pages)

  5. Belgarath the Sorcerer by David Eddings (723 pages) reread

  6. Pawn of Prophecy by David Eddings (262 pages) reread

  7. Queen of Sorcery by David Eddings (336 pages) reread

  8. Magician's Gambit by David Eddings (320 pages) reread

  9. The Time Traveler's Guide to Elizabethan England by Ian Mortimer (325 pages)

  10. You're Never Weird On the Internet (Almost) by Felicia Day (259 pages)

  11. The Rival Queens: Catherine de'Medici, Her Daughter Marguerite de Valois, and the Betrayal that Ignited a Kingdom by Nancy Gladstone (390 pages)

  12. 1215: The Year of the Magna Carta by Danny Danziger and John Gillingham (290 pages)

  13. Elizabeth I: CEO: Strategic Lessons from the Leader Who Built an Empire by Alan Axelrod (261 pages)

  14. Castle of Wizardy by David Eddings (246 pages) re-read

  15. The Plantagenets by Dan Jones (510 pages)

  16. Enchanter's Endgame by David Eddings (384 pages) re-read

    Total Pages: 5719

I read more books than in 2014, but only a few hundred more total pages. Hopefully I can read even more in 2016!

Manga Rin and Butterfly

Journey to the City of Endless Night: Chapter Eighty One (This is NOT a Drill. It's for REAL)


It's sure been an awfully long time. In fact, it's been almost SIX years. I know. Crazy after all this time to go ahead and do this. I feel it's time, though. I had orginally planned on not releasing a single chapter until I had the story totally completed, but I've got about eight chapters already written and hope to have four to five more done sooner than later. I've debated a lot lately about posting or not posting and i've decided to post. It's been fun writing these chapters, and it's not as fun when they're mostly kept to myself.

So, where did the inspiration come from? In about July, doggieearlover nudged me with a very encouraging review for Journey. I had planned on re-reading the Belgariad about the time she sent the review, so one thing led to another and I found that the story was calling to me again. It's been fun working on it again. So, thank her for these new chapters.

The thing is, though, to keep myself from feeling overwhelmed by a need to update frequently, I'm hoping I can post a new chapter a month for a least a year. I'm about four chapters short of that goal right now, but I figure I have at least eight months to work on those four to keep to the schedule. That's fairly doable, I think.

So far, I'm thinking I'll stick to just MM.org and AFF. They were the primary posting sites back in the day for Journey, so it makes sense. If, however, someone wants to help portage Journey to Arhcive of Our Own with a code or whatever it is you need to post over there, I wouldn't mind taking the whole epic mess that way, too.

All in all, it's been a delight returning to some of my old friends. It's like that world just sat patiently waiting for me to come back to it and pick up right where we left off. As you can see by my icon choice, this is a Rin-centric chapter. (Hint, Rin's still by far my favorite of the Inuyasha series) I know when I left off on Journey we had left her and our poor Demon Lord, Sesshomaru, in quite a bit of hot water. Why don't you head over to MM.org or AFF (or both if you're inclined!) and find out just what happened to her.

Leave a review, leave a comment here, whatever you like.

Far Away Eyes 

Re-Reading Fun: The Belgariad


After a certain person prodded me about a month ago, I decided it'd be fun to return to some old friends of mine and re-read David Eddings. I've loved The Belgariad/Malloreon series since 1996-97. The first time I met Garion, Polgara, Belgarath and company was during the most awful winter of my memory here in Minnesota. We didn't have school that entire month, I was left with little to do but curl up in a chair under a warm blanky and read. So, I chose a fantasy series I had stumbled upon at the library and was well on my way down the rabbit hole lost in this awesome world.

Now that I'm returning to it, all the love, the humor, and the fun I remember the first time reading it all coming back. I'm kinda reading it a little out of order---I started with Belgarath the Sorcerer, a prequel that came out after the series itself, but somehow starting at the VERY beginning seems appropriate before we get to Garion's portion, yes? The funny thing about this series is that the first volume was originally published in 1982. I was born that year, so Garion and I are the same age in many respects, so it's another element that makes this series all the more special and dear to me.

I also know I need a book to read soon---one that I know backwards, frontwards, and sideways---as I will be going on a trip and I hate flying. I need something I can read while I'm trying not to think too hard about being in the sky or getting past the TSA or all the other headaches that come with post-911 flying. Somehow, getting lost in all those little inside jokes and those great characters seems right.

Truthfully, it's also been way too long for me not to read this fantastic series. It's got a lot of flawed characters that make them so real and relatable, a great plot structure, and the main messages under the magic are so strong that it makes it more than the typical "fantasy" or so-called genre novels. (That's a whole nother rant about how genre has ALWAYS been better than the literary rep it gets, but not for this entry)

So, what are you re-reading? What would you like to re-read if you haven't in awhile? Why?

Dabbling: What Is Old Is New Again

Have you ever gone back to an old project (writing, crafts, etc) and just wanted to dabble and play around with it some even if you haven't looked at it in years? I'v been doing that after a nudge, and it's been rather refreshing. Sometimes old can be new again! 

Thank You, Jared Padalecki for #AlwaysKeepFighting (and for being YOU)

Dear Jared,

Thank  you so much for the #AlwaysKeepFighting campaign and the honest and brave statements you've made about mental illness, addiction, and depression. It has been truly inspiring, moving, and powerful to read the articles connected to the campaign, see your openness with the fans that have won your contests, and know that not only are you giving us such a powerful phrase to turn to, but that we're having a positive impact on you, too.

I, myself, do not suffer from any of these disorders, but this campaign has touched me in so many ways. I may not have had thoughts of harming myself, felt depression, or had suicidal thoughts at any point in my life, but as someone who was bullied every day for a good portion of my school years, I find myself always having to fight against its long lasting impacts. I may not have told myself horrible things internally on my own, but I most certainly heard them out loud from my peers---things that did change my view of myself at times. It allowed me to doubt and to question myself---my talents, my worth, my very life---and in some ways it is a challenge to find the value that I can bring to the world because of it.

It has been, thorughout the years, a battle to remember that what they said about me is not the truth and that I must always remember to fight back against the thoughts they tried to put into my head about myself---even if sometimes it seems that they may have been right. It's not always easy. There are days when those doubts can be overwhelming, when the things they said seem to haunt--even in my subconcious---and it can be a struggle to remember that I can bring good to the world.

Your campaign phrase connects with me for that very reason. It gives me that battle cry that I know I can turn to when I need to push back the doubts the most. It can remind me to not let them speak for me. It reminds me, that no matter how hard it gets, how dark it becomes, or how much i'm struggling at any time, that I must Always Keep Fighting so I can continue to bring my talents, my worth, and goodness to the world.

Thank you so much. It means so much to me and to so many others.

Always Keep Fighting.

Far Away Eyes

PS: If you'd like to learn more about the #AlwaysKeepFighting campaign and Jared Padalecki's shirt, go here: https://represent.com/jared or here: https://www.facebook.com/JaredPadalecki?_rdr Help support a great cause and start a conversation about mental illness, depression, or addiction. We can only make these things better if we talk about them. 

The Books I Read in 2014

Happy New Year everyone!

Here's what I read last year:

Books I read in 2014

  1. The Princes in the Tower by Alison Weir (258 pages)

  2. Fangasm: Supernatural Fangirls by Katherine Larsen and Lynn S. Zubernis (239 pages)

  3. Elizabeth of York by Alison Weir (457 pages)

  4. Katherine of Aragon by Jean Plaidy (643 pages)

  5. The Wonderful Wizard of Oz by L. Frank Baum (139 pages)

  6. The Good Earth by Pearl S. Buck (357 pages)

  7. Dracula by Bram Stoker (444 pages)

  8. The Lady of the Rivers by Philippa Gregory (435 pages)

  9. The Kingmaker's Daughter by Philippa Gregory (409 pages)

  10. The White Princess by Philippa Gregory (519 pages)

  11. On Monsters: An Unnatural History of Our Worst Fears by Stephen T. Asma (284 pages)

  12. Goodbye to All That by Robert Graves (347 pages)

  13. The Guns of August by Barbara W. Tuchman (524 pages)

  14. Japanese Tales by Royall Tyler (320 pages)

Total pages read: 5375

All of them were good. If you haven't read any of these, I recommend all of them.


Thank You, Jared, Jensen, and Misha

Jared, Jensen, and Misha,

I want to say thank you for "Soul Survivor." While the episode may have dealt with demons and angels, it is the metaphor that they represented that touched me deeply. In my weekly review, I addressed this episode as one discussing the ravages of disease and how that can be an emotional struggle. I know it all too well as I have a father that suffers from a chronic condition with no real cure.

It has its ups and downs and it can be scary----I see Demon Dean as his condition for sure. If it were able to speak, I can't imagine it would have anything nice to say or do. It was powerful to have a face for it, even in the disguise of a demonic character. It's hard to be angry with something you can't really see or yell at, but I found this character to be very cathartic for that reason. His cruelty and the way Demon Dean lashed out during the cure is how I'm sure my father's condition would.

I also connected deeply with Misha's performance as he conveyed Castiel's decline. I've seen this type of behavior with my father at times, and I know that it's not easy to discuss or acknowledge sickness. Seeing how this was shown in the episode made it all the more heartbreaking as Castiel slowly made peace with his fate---and tried to help Hannah to do the same. Castiel may be an angel and it may be a supernatural illness, but the way Misha played it was so human and real.

I also see Sam's struggles in "Soul Survivor" as my own in coping with what my father endures. I truly felt moved watching Sam holding the pictures of Sam and Dean's better days. Seeing him find his resolve to continue gives me a reminder of why I stand with my father against his condition. I will draw upon this scene and this episode. It captured, truly, all the highs, lows, and difficult emotions when one is dealing with the ravages of disease.

When I feel it is the darkest, I know I can turn to this and remind myself to keep fighting---that I'm not alone in this and that others feel as I do when facing illness. I'll be like Sam and look at pictures and memories that remind me what's really important: my love for my father. I'll beat that Demon Dean back. Thank you for such a  powerful and moving episode. It means more to mean than you'll ever know.